Where's the key?

There's always a time I ask myself "where is the man who'll be my future boyfriend?" after all, I've never been into a serious commitment. When it comes in Love I admit that I'm so skeptical-- I myself have doubts about it. I remember when I was in my gradeschool years, I had a huge crush with my classmate. He's so nice, creative and jolly. Whenever I'm sad he sees it, so he'll make a move to somehow make me happy. However it only lasted for a year. I transfered to another school. And ever since I didn't know any info about him. I prayed that our worlds will soon meet again. Till in a very unexpected day, unexpected moment I found this grace. I got an information of his and gladly he still knows me:) Actually I barely use my phone in SMS conversations, since I was a child, my only entertainment in this thing is its saved games. It was my first time texting a guy, communicating with a guy thru landline conversation. It feels like, my heart stops beating... <3 I might as well request for CPR :))) I have my cousin, Kate with me. She laughs as I received a msg from him. Since then, I believe in love and luck. I consider this guy my very first crush. Seriously, it lasted for years... this affection. I may call it INTIMACY. But not CONSPIRACY. that's too awkward...:)))