Having a remarkable guy in your life
comes only once in a while.
but if you'll find another guy after your first,
for sure you will undergo a process called Letting go.
In simple word, letting go means moving on.
means, you have to forget him.
I had an experience on this.
Once I loved a remarkable guy.
I loved him for several years,
and yet, he doesn't know it until now.
only he knew, I had a crush on him.
that's all he knew.
then, it was our last meeting
he went on his way, and so i did.
we were just CLASSMATES.
but for me, more than it, I guess
I want to have some of his contact numbers
and his email add. but, I can't ask for these to
his friends.
Because maybe, they will notice what i feel for him.
Then, many years past.
Still, I can't forget him.
I don't even know why.
Maybe, some of what i like in a guy,I found on him.
Although, his not handsome, he is the first guy
I ever loved.
So, I consider him as my first love.
Yah, first puppy love, I guess.
then, at last, I had his number,
told by a friend.
Accidentally it happened.
His really not on my mind on that time.
Its like a feeling,
That a rock unexpectedly thrown on your head.
that was i felt.
I texted him.
I spent hundreds of pesos for a load.
Just a simple reply from him, made me happy.
After that, I knew him more.
his family background, his friends, his exes,
and his type to a girl.
I felt uneasy on that time.
And my heart beats faster
like it will explode.
And in the End of this Chapter,
he had a friend.. A girl..
and that girl has all his type to a girl.
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See how it hurts.
But, I need to move-on.
I need to find someone who could
take his place in my heart.
I wish, I he will never make me cry.
Sincerity. That is what I'm seeking for a guy
Loyalty. I want him to have.
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Love, I spent so many years finding it
Hugs, I want to experience even just for a while
Cares, make me feel it.
Songs, I want him to sing it for me.
