They said that the truth will set you free, for me so does acceptance.
a few years ago I had my very first Mutual Understanding (M.U.) relationship with a guy named Louie, not his real name.
I was in my Junior high school when my bestfriend Camille introduced him to me.
Louie and I had both good times and bad times. Like any other M.U. relationships, we had some points
that one should make sacrifices for the other, or try not to get jealous because of having no "legal" right to be.
Ours started as a friendly relationship then went to M.U. stage wherein we like each other but had no commitment.
Apart from having that kind of relationship, we also had Long distance relationship but of course no commitment.
Yes, I know we had a very complicated relationship but it ran through a year and a 3 months to finish.
On our first 3 months, we had a very passionate communication.
we had been talking till midnight then texting for the whole day.
But had no dates.
however on our last 5 months we had our first date (it isn't a date for me coz he's not my boyfriend or like he's courting me). We had it at SM Mall of Asia together with a friend, Socorro.
Till now, I still don't know how it became a M.U. relationship. I didn't say "Yes". He did not court me. All we have
was knowing we like each other.
Afterwards of having him always by my side, like in Business; ours had reached its decline stage.
He became more attracted on such vices like alcohol drinking, bar partying, and the most sadly-- getting in a
legal relationship.
I can't blame him. I know handling this kind of relationship is really damn hard.
I was in our province, having my vacation wayback then.
But what should I do?-- that question has had been lingering on my mind.
I had asked some of my friends regarding this but it wasn't enough for me to get pacified.
I had cried for weeks, even waking up or trying to go to sleep... or both.
Then we talked.
He told me that I was being so cold to him lately.
That I was being too possessive; that even socializing to his friends, I was so strict.
For me I want him to get rid of those bad influence- friends of his.
And I slightly hate them coz they have been pushing Louie to go for vices.
So I let Louie know what I want him to.
Louie got mad.
He told me that I was not his girlfriend to do such cares.
I started to cry and get silent.
then he continued to talk again.
According to him, I am so easily to break things up.
Having been out in honors program was very disappointing to me, so I tried my best.
To him, I started to get cold after that happening.
It was all because I want to make my parents proud of me again.
But he said that, "then you should be not handling such relationship, even in the legal way."
Then I cut the conversation. I hanged the phone.
After hearing what he said.
I started to ask myself if it's a bad thing, and yes it is.
I should have fight for our relationship.
I should have not let go of him.
I should have said to him what I was going through.
After that, I started to live like having left on me nothing but bitterness and hate.
Some of my friends said that my advicing styles have changed.
After 3 years, here I am.
Already moved on and have alreadly let go of him.
I thank God for letting me enlighten that No matter how dirty my past is, my future is spotless.
That I should let my heart open for others who want to court me.
That I should be open to possibilities.
yes, it's been four years and I became better.
I guess as a young teenager, we commonly have relationships that has been out of our minds, that we
do not know how to handle it properly. Because of being young, we make choices and decisions out of
immaturity in terms of Love. Furthermore, we must be ready for the right one to arrive.
Louie just graduated college. He is now, as what some of our friends say, handling their family business.
I graduated high school and now in college taking up Biochemistry.
I have nothing but both good and bad memories of him.
I thank him for letting this lessons happen and testing my faith.
I would miss his sweet hello's.
But I should get ready for my future's sweeter hello's :)
