Secret Crush

How do I tell you exactly how I feel
Would you believe me when I say its for real
Or would you walk away from me
Without even trying to seeI've felt like this for a while now
But I never told you, I don't know how
It's very hard for me to explain
But you always stopped me from going insane
For me you have always been there
You were the only person that would care
But my love for you continues to hide
My friend, without you I would have died
I'm afraid you won't feel the same
And you'll think its some game
But its not, this isn't from my head
It's from the heart, not some book I read
I like you more than just a friend
But you probably wouldn't understand
That's why I haven't told you about this feeling
Rejection is what I'm afraid it will bring
So I continue to have this "secret crush"
I want to tell you but the voices say to hush
So I keep it deep down in my heart
Afraid of everything falling apart

Happines and Heartaches

Being with someone doesn't guarantee happiness.
Finding your other half does.
It doesn't matter how long you've been along,
how long you've hoped, or how long you've waited.
There's no such thing as a perfect love story.
Heartaches will always be a part of loving.
but remember, though not perfect if that is meant for you,
it will stick with you till the end. no matter how tough it gets,
no matter how long you waited; Far from perfect but real!

Idea of falling in love

sometimes, we are in love in the idea of falling in love...
loving the illusion of having or missing someone...
its alright to feel happy through other people.
but don't get dependent on achieving happiness by being with someone...
love your self first before sharing your life
with somebody coz if you don't, you will always
look for people that can make you feel complete
and in the end, it will make you lose yourself more,
bit by bit...piece by piece..

don't give up!

never give up when everything falls into pieces...
never lose hope when everybody turns their back on you..
remember. life is not about being fair...
its about surpassing the unfair reality..

It's so confusing

what's sad about loving somebody?
it's when your not good enough
because somebody else occupies his mind and his heart
and you know you can't compete with that..

sometimes we say goodbye to the one we love
without wanting to..
but it doesn't mean we stop loving and caring..
coz sometimes, goodbye is a painful way of saying
i love you..

pag nagmahal, minsan masaya..
pero mas madalas masakit..
tapos tatawagin ka pang tanga ng iba..
kasi sinaktan ka na, sinasabi mo pa, "panu xa?"
di mo ba naisip?
ikaw, panu ka?

just because my eyes don't tear
doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry..
and just because i come out strong
doesn't mean there's nothing wrong..
often, i choose to pretend i'm happy so
i don't have to explain myself to people
who will never understand..
smiling has always been easier than explaining why i'm sad..

there are hopeless romantics..
in my case, i'm a hopeless dreamer
coz everytime i see you,
i'm reminded of my hopeless dream..

setting someone free is the hardest thing to do..
but it's not the tears you cried that makes it so hard..
it's the small piece of hope left inside your heart
that someday you'll still end up together..

love changed me.. the way i think, the way i act,
the way i decide..
sometimes, i even go againsts my principles
and beliefs in life..
loving doesn't mean i'll always be happy..
sometimes, all it provides me is pain and misery..
yet i was blinded by strong emotions
that i failed to see reality..
sometimes, letting go is the answer..
it hurts like hell, but i will soon realize that
it's better to see the person i love to be happy
with someone else than to be lonely with me..

how could you probably be friends with someone
when everytime you look at that person
you want to slap his face and shout:
"stop smiling, your stealing my heart..

ever had the feeling, you attempt and fight hard
to take someone off your mind and off your life
but each time you're in that person's presence..
you just can't help but fall..

there are things in life that you can't hold on forever,
no matter how hard you fight for it..
sometimes destiny isn't always good, it becomes playful..
when you met someone you learned to love,
you thought it was destiny who made your paths cross..
but what if making your paths cross is
just a part of hate game that the playful destiny creates?
making you realize in the end that the person you
thought was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay..
but is only destined to make you feel loved
and leave you when you've already fallen..

mahirap tanggapin na may mahal na siyang iba..
mahirap umasang balang araw babalik siya..
kahit mahirap.. kahit masakit..
pilit pa rin akong naghihintay
kahit siya na ang nagsasabing wala ng pag-asa..

i'm holding on to the thought that you're not mine anymore..
coz i know you already love someone else..
i'm gonna look at you in the eye, smile and say,
"you're not mine anymore.."
then walk away, turn around the last second and say,
"but i wish you were.."

loving isn't what we see but what we feel..
not how we listened but how we understand..
not how we forget but how we forgive..
loving is holding on even when the pain dares you to let go..

i didn't even asked him to love me..
all i wanted was a friendship to last a lifetime..
still he chose tobe a stranger,
leaving soon after he captured my heart..


kahit ilang beses pa akong magpaalam sa kanya,
babalik at babalik pa rin ako..
dahil hindi ko naman talaga kayang mawala siya..
isang hakbang ko lang palayo sa kanya, di ko na kaya..
paano pa kaya kung mawala siya ng tuluyan?..

"if pain must come, may it come quickly..
because i have a life to live and
i need to live it in the best way possible..
if he has to make a choice, may he make it now..
then i will either wait for him or forget him..
waiting is painful, forgetting is painful,,
but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.."

i cant imagine life without him,
when in reality i have lived a wonderful life before i knew him..
this is my reality for now..
living in that bitter sweet truth that
there is no part of him that i can call mine..

everyday i soak myself with reasons to forget him..
everyday i lie..
everyday i try to find strength to get me through..
and yet, everyday i die..

i wasn't aware that he came only to love me for a while..
i was aiming to be with him forever
but he's not willing to work it all out..
it hurts too much but all i can do is watch him go away..
and that's the end of it..
there goes my forever.. there goes my life..
i know he's gone but holding on to him has
became my way to keep me alive..

Letting Go

leaving is love you've suddenly outgrown can be heart breaking
but it only shows you are strong enough to walk away
from a relationship that no longer makes you happy.
moving out of your comfort zone can be downright scary...
but it also proves how brave you are to take on the unknown.
stronger, braver and wiser...
you always do a little growing' up every time you do a little letting go...