Being blind in love was not a mistake.
It’s what you’ve chose from the start
On what you would be.
When Jacky told me the inappropriate things he was doing in Facebook, that time the happiness I’m having on the beach was then replaced by a sudden fall of tears.
As I arrived home, I ran instantly in the nearest computer shop in our street.
Jacky isn’t lying. The truth is on screen.
I was then calm. However in the inside, I’m crying loud enough to shout the anger I’m feeling inside.
I didn’t cry too much. I was just in the sofa, sitting.
And reflect some memories.
He once had said that he loves me. But the things he was showing before wasn’t enough for me to believe in.
I’m hard to get but easy to fall.
Was the things he told me before wasn’t a ‘mistake’ to him?
Was he damn lonely and eager to have someone comforting him whenever he has problems?
Is this my consequence on loving too much?
Am I worthy to have this?
If he isn’t for me, then why am I feeling that I am?
If he deserves my love, then why I got hurt?
If he is the right one for me then why at the end I was left alone?
I’m asking myself if in all the thousand words I’ve said, is there even one meant anything for you?
Have I fulfilled my mission in making you happy even just for a while? Or this is just the start of the consequence I have to face?
I’m tired… really I am.
I hope I could run, run far away from you.
But running too distantly is making me miss you more.
That’s why in that run… I sudden look back.
Maybe in that way, the one hurting who’s hurting me was I.
I want to cry even more and louder. But there’s no tears have shed.
In this very moment, I called Jacky to have someone comforting me.
She answered me and said “This happens for a reason. Once the start entered, it goes until the end of the finish line. Be ready to sacrifice when you’re in love. Coz there’s no GAIN if there’s no PAIN.
I told her why there’s no tears falling, though my voice signifies that I’m about to cry.
She said “If a guy is not worth of crying, maybe the angels are pulling back the tears in your eyes. Coz that tears of yours is precious. “
As I arrived here in Manila, the first song played in our car’s radio was the song by Secondhand Serenade, Your Call.
On how John tabbed the guitar’s string…it breaks me into pieces.
Because that song made me remember him again
The lyrics sung are the words I wanted him to tell me.
But I have to accept the truth that it will never happen.
After months of being blinded by the truth, an event came and made me realize more that he is not worth it.
I did exchange my supportive friend because of that guy.
Instead of going back for a hundredth time,
I stand by a restaurant with this guy and almost forgot that I have a friend waiting for me in the next lot.
Urgghh. I want this to end.
Please, let me move on. I had you, but I lost you.
So what do you want? Please, don’t add some lies on your sins.
The real reason that I’m over you is because now I see who you really are.
Can I just continue my life alone?
I don’t need someone to help me out.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Though wanting to PM you on YM, I’m forcing myself not to.
Because I want to forget the guy who once made me feel UNIMPORTANT and STUPID at the end.
Let this affection fade. Let this pain end.
Let this heart stops beating for him.
Let me be take a step away from tears,
really I could hardly breathe.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
The Risk
what if the closest friend you had,
just came along...
and she has something to do with your guy...
who once existed form your past...
The guy you ever dreamed of...
The closest friend you ever had..
knows each other before...
hadn't had chances to love each other.
As time came along,
you had him once again.
After the years you expected to be one again.
then it happen.
The guy of your dreams.
once not yours, but
time dis forbade you to have him.
Then once, the girl who just
came in your life.
The best ever close friend u ever had.
was the last love of the guy of your dreams.
Then they met up in a same place
wherein you and this guy is at.
You have no idea why they gone talking.
You've seen them by the garden.
It seems a romantic place.
Then, you're just sitting alone..
when the guy sat right next to you.
Now he said that the girl he's gone
talking with was the girl he loved
lately.
what will you do if
the reason why they meet again, is you?
what will be the reason behind the
jealousy you're feeling in and know
the real reason why they got apart?
The reason that they had no time to
count their hearts as one...
But then, there's you...
there's you to be the bridge of their seek.
What will you feel if the closest friend
you just had, be the reason of all the
sacrifices your doing... just to make
your guy and her be happy.
would you risk your love for this girl?
or you will let this go?
just came along...
and she has something to do with your guy...
who once existed form your past...
The guy you ever dreamed of...
The closest friend you ever had..
knows each other before...
hadn't had chances to love each other.
As time came along,
you had him once again.
After the years you expected to be one again.
then it happen.
The guy of your dreams.
once not yours, but
time dis forbade you to have him.
Then once, the girl who just
came in your life.
The best ever close friend u ever had.
was the last love of the guy of your dreams.
Then they met up in a same place
wherein you and this guy is at.
You have no idea why they gone talking.
You've seen them by the garden.
It seems a romantic place.
Then, you're just sitting alone..
when the guy sat right next to you.
Now he said that the girl he's gone
talking with was the girl he loved
lately.
what will you do if
the reason why they meet again, is you?
what will be the reason behind the
jealousy you're feeling in and know
the real reason why they got apart?
The reason that they had no time to
count their hearts as one...
But then, there's you...
there's you to be the bridge of their seek.
What will you feel if the closest friend
you just had, be the reason of all the
sacrifices your doing... just to make
your guy and her be happy.
would you risk your love for this girl?
or you will let this go?
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
The bitter ending of a sweet beginning
i don't really have any idea why things are getting weird... why the people we love does not stay...But after all the stupidity I've done, it somehow made me realized that after all the pains and sacrifices I had, there will be an enlightenment.
People stay to know us better. They arrived because of a reason... and they'll leave for also a reason. But why we came not to accept the fact that they'll be gone forever?
Maybe I'm logically wrong. Some people come back to make us realize how we've grown up... how we've changed... how our lives got even better than before.
Having someone with you as you play the piano, is really such a good feeling. He listens to the music you're playing and he watches you as you press the keys. But could you imagine, that this guy is the one you love...
Maybe the intention of the girl is to make the guy feel that the song she's playing is the song she want's to sing then say to that guy but, the girl is too damn scared of what would be the guy's reply.
After all, the girl loved the girl first...
but the girl refuses it. Because during that time, she's in love with someone else.
But unexpectedly, as time goes by, as this guy shows what he feels, the girl has fallen in love on him.
But the time that the girl will let the guy know that she loves him too, is the time the guy let go...
The girl cried when she knew that.
but she cried not that hard because, at first, it was her who made the guy wait for a long time.
As you read the story, you may be wondering why the girl did not tell it to the guy in that very moment before it's too late..as what her heart was saying...
It's because, she wanted not to be hurt and to see deeply if this guy worth the love of the girl.
The story ends with just a secrecy of the truth.
The truth that would never exist in reality.
The story behind all the lessons in MU.
The story that has to be forbidden to remember.
Yet terrifying to forget.
We must accept and understand how life be so complicated. But we must understand deeply on why it happens and to accept what happened.
People stay to know us better. They arrived because of a reason... and they'll leave for also a reason. But why we came not to accept the fact that they'll be gone forever?
Maybe I'm logically wrong. Some people come back to make us realize how we've grown up... how we've changed... how our lives got even better than before.
Having someone with you as you play the piano, is really such a good feeling. He listens to the music you're playing and he watches you as you press the keys. But could you imagine, that this guy is the one you love...
Maybe the intention of the girl is to make the guy feel that the song she's playing is the song she want's to sing then say to that guy but, the girl is too damn scared of what would be the guy's reply.
After all, the girl loved the girl first...
but the girl refuses it. Because during that time, she's in love with someone else.
But unexpectedly, as time goes by, as this guy shows what he feels, the girl has fallen in love on him.
But the time that the girl will let the guy know that she loves him too, is the time the guy let go...
The girl cried when she knew that.
but she cried not that hard because, at first, it was her who made the guy wait for a long time.
As you read the story, you may be wondering why the girl did not tell it to the guy in that very moment before it's too late..as what her heart was saying...
It's because, she wanted not to be hurt and to see deeply if this guy worth the love of the girl.
The story ends with just a secrecy of the truth.
The truth that would never exist in reality.
The story behind all the lessons in MU.
The story that has to be forbidden to remember.
Yet terrifying to forget.
We must accept and understand how life be so complicated. But we must understand deeply on why it happens and to accept what happened.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
The periodity of the foolishness I did.
my heart is like a
blackboard.
I'm writing the names
of the people who really touched my life. But then, I asked myself about the chalk I used when I'm writing your name.
Is the chalk I used when I'm writing your name is a PERMANENT? If not, why is it hard for me to erase it? =|
blackboard.
I'm writing the names
of the people who really touched my life. But then, I asked myself about the chalk I used when I'm writing your name.
Is the chalk I used when I'm writing your name is a PERMANENT? If not, why is it hard for me to erase it? =|
Is the chalk used by me when I wrote your name in my heart is PERMANENT? If not, why is it hard for me to erase it?
I know how stupid I am. But the feelings of mine to him still exists.
Although i always ask God to make the Time make its way onto my mind to eliminate him in my life.
but i guess there is currently a traffic which brought the time to be
late. I wish forgetting u or erasing u in my life was just like a blackboard that there's an eraser below it.
And for me to erase ur name.
But unfortunately, it isn't just easy as like that.
We all need is time.
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the things that haven't said, the sweet feelings that was felt but had not explained, the time used to be for two of us hasn't became as one.
i think the reason behind this things has an irrelevant whys.
the time and aura of these were not the same as the other.
people take risks to be able to find out what would be their limit.
some just says "whatever happens, happen."
This line has to be explained and the person said it has to learn how to make people prove that he isn't weak.
The thing is, he has to be brave enough to explain things out.
not just say "whatever the think of me, it doesn't matter".
The question is would this person let the negative accusations lies on the head of the people around him.
Although i always ask God to make the Time make its way onto my mind to eliminate him in my life.
but i guess there is currently a traffic which brought the time to be
late. I wish forgetting u or erasing u in my life was just like a blackboard that there's an eraser below it.
And for me to erase ur name.
But unfortunately, it isn't just easy as like that.
We all need is time.
=============
the things that haven't said, the sweet feelings that was felt but had not explained, the time used to be for two of us hasn't became as one.
i think the reason behind this things has an irrelevant whys.
the time and aura of these were not the same as the other.
people take risks to be able to find out what would be their limit.
some just says "whatever happens, happen."
This line has to be explained and the person said it has to learn how to make people prove that he isn't weak.
The thing is, he has to be brave enough to explain things out.
not just say "whatever the think of me, it doesn't matter".
The question is would this person let the negative accusations lies on the head of the people around him.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
:D
we started as frendz..across d road it almost died but still it survived.. smhow, somway it juz kips on finding its way.. hey, lam ko mhba pa la2karin ntin, sna dka mapagod..
Monday, April 19, 2010
wee:)
Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it.
=
To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.
=
You are what I never knew I always wanted
=
Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
=
The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.
=
I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.
=
A kiss without a hug is like a flower without the fragrance.
=
You don’t know how many times people
ask me if we’re going out,
And how hard it is for me to look at
them and say “No, we’re just friends.”
And then this one is cute too:
It’s not up to me anymore.
If you want me in your life,
you’ll find a way to put me there.
This is the last one(:
When you feel alone, just
look at the spaces between
your fingers and know that’s
where mine fit perfectly.
=
i hope that one day,
i’ll always be in your heart,
because im here to stay,
this is just the start
=
If only you knew,
how much i love you
but i guess you just don’t have a clue
how much i think about you
=
How come you have enough time to go out and make other girls fall in love with you, but you don’t have enough time to pay attention to the girl who already is.
=
if its suppose to be a good feeling…then why is it called a crush?
=
She loves him more than he will ever know,
He loves her more than he will ever show.
=
When you smile,
that bittersweet moment,
makes me forget everything else and smile along,
but then i realize that smile had nothing to do with mei must look like a creep with a dumb smile,
but I'm just a boy in love.
=
When you look at me, what do you see? Together,forever you and me?
=
For every girl with a broken heart,
There's a boy waiting with a glue gun.
=
with the smallest hug you bring out the best in me
I’ve met you. i know who you are. i know what your capable of, and i know just about everything about you. you gave me memories. you’ve made me cry. you’ve made me laugh. but mostly you gave me love. & there’s no letting go. <3
=
IT IS NOT LOVE IF YOU GET HURT BUT THEN AGAIN THERE IS NO LOVE C0Z IT IS CALLED COMMITMENT
=
if I could be anything I would be your tear, so I could be born in your eye, live down your cheek and die on your lips… <3pvs
=
Cause I love you and I miss you, hearing your voice is the closest thing to touching you…
=
when i’ve met you, I was too scared to get to know you. Now that I’ve known you, I am too scared to be with you. Now that I am with you, I am too scared to leave you… You know why … Its because you unintentionally make me fall for you… you just know how to make me love you at the right places and its scares me so much.
=
I try to separate myself from you,
slowly and painfully I start to.
It’s a game of breaking and taking my heart,
when each time you move on and part.
=
Somewhere there is someone who dreams of your smile.
If you love me in my dreams, then let me be asleep forever
=
If I had to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say ‘I Love You’
=
Don’t fall to hard unless there willing to catch you.(:
=
All I’m asking for is one day. One day of just you and me, all alone. And at the end of that day, if you can honestly go and say that you don’t feel anything for me, that is when I will let you go.
=
sometimes wish you would pay attention to my favorite songs, because the lyrics they sing r the words I'm too scared to say
=
I remember the day I first saw you
The love that I had was surely true
I saw you the next day and my heart went wild
As you turned and suddenly smiled
You slowly began to walk to me
I thought to myself how could this be
My friends and I started to mutter
Then as you spoke I began to stutter
I wanted to tell you how much I cared
But I couldn't speak so i stood and stared
As I was thinking what to say
You just turned and walked away
You made me happy and made me sad
Along with that, you made me mad
You caused me heartache and caused me pain
But most of all, you drove me insane
I hate you but love you, cant you see
That all i wanted was you and me!
=
Although he doesn't know you exist, never forget about him, because soon he will want to be yours.
=
today i caught myself smiling for no reason…then i realized i was thinking about you!!
=
People keep on asking me if i believe in forever and i just laugh because with the way my life is going right now i don't even believe in tomorrow!
=
“When I see your smile, and I know it’s not for me, that’s when I’ll miss you”
=
Can miles truly separate you from friends…. If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?
=
To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.
=
You are what I never knew I always wanted
=
Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
=
The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.
=
I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.
=
A kiss without a hug is like a flower without the fragrance.
=
You don’t know how many times people
ask me if we’re going out,
And how hard it is for me to look at
them and say “No, we’re just friends.”
And then this one is cute too:
It’s not up to me anymore.
If you want me in your life,
you’ll find a way to put me there.
This is the last one(:
When you feel alone, just
look at the spaces between
your fingers and know that’s
where mine fit perfectly.
=
i hope that one day,
i’ll always be in your heart,
because im here to stay,
this is just the start
=
If only you knew,
how much i love you
but i guess you just don’t have a clue
how much i think about you
=
How come you have enough time to go out and make other girls fall in love with you, but you don’t have enough time to pay attention to the girl who already is.
=
if its suppose to be a good feeling…then why is it called a crush?
=
She loves him more than he will ever know,
He loves her more than he will ever show.
=
When you smile,
that bittersweet moment,
makes me forget everything else and smile along,
but then i realize that smile had nothing to do with mei must look like a creep with a dumb smile,
but I'm just a boy in love.
=
When you look at me, what do you see? Together,forever you and me?
=
For every girl with a broken heart,
There's a boy waiting with a glue gun.
=
with the smallest hug you bring out the best in me
I’ve met you. i know who you are. i know what your capable of, and i know just about everything about you. you gave me memories. you’ve made me cry. you’ve made me laugh. but mostly you gave me love. & there’s no letting go. <3
=
IT IS NOT LOVE IF YOU GET HURT BUT THEN AGAIN THERE IS NO LOVE C0Z IT IS CALLED COMMITMENT
=
if I could be anything I would be your tear, so I could be born in your eye, live down your cheek and die on your lips… <3pvs
=
Cause I love you and I miss you, hearing your voice is the closest thing to touching you…
=
when i’ve met you, I was too scared to get to know you. Now that I’ve known you, I am too scared to be with you. Now that I am with you, I am too scared to leave you… You know why … Its because you unintentionally make me fall for you… you just know how to make me love you at the right places and its scares me so much.
=
I try to separate myself from you,
slowly and painfully I start to.
It’s a game of breaking and taking my heart,
when each time you move on and part.
=
Somewhere there is someone who dreams of your smile.
If you love me in my dreams, then let me be asleep forever
=
If I had to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say ‘I Love You’
=
Don’t fall to hard unless there willing to catch you.(:
=
All I’m asking for is one day. One day of just you and me, all alone. And at the end of that day, if you can honestly go and say that you don’t feel anything for me, that is when I will let you go.
=
sometimes wish you would pay attention to my favorite songs, because the lyrics they sing r the words I'm too scared to say
=
I remember the day I first saw you
The love that I had was surely true
I saw you the next day and my heart went wild
As you turned and suddenly smiled
You slowly began to walk to me
I thought to myself how could this be
My friends and I started to mutter
Then as you spoke I began to stutter
I wanted to tell you how much I cared
But I couldn't speak so i stood and stared
As I was thinking what to say
You just turned and walked away
You made me happy and made me sad
Along with that, you made me mad
You caused me heartache and caused me pain
But most of all, you drove me insane
I hate you but love you, cant you see
That all i wanted was you and me!
=
Although he doesn't know you exist, never forget about him, because soon he will want to be yours.
=
today i caught myself smiling for no reason…then i realized i was thinking about you!!
=
People keep on asking me if i believe in forever and i just laugh because with the way my life is going right now i don't even believe in tomorrow!
=
“When I see your smile, and I know it’s not for me, that’s when I’ll miss you”
=
Can miles truly separate you from friends…. If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?
Quotes!:)
Life, is about letting the unexpected happen and finding things you never searched for.
_________________________
Ask me what I want, my answer will always be you
_________________________
It will always be worth it, to be with someone who knows your worth
_________________________
He's the one guy you will always go back to. Always vulnerable to him.
_________________________
When s/he is really, really into you, s/he will always find a way to make time for you. NO EXCUSES.
_________________________
The only true painful goodbyes.. are the ones that are never said and never explained.
_________________________
I should do the right thing because its our choices that make us who we are
_________________________
Ask me what I want, my answer will always be you
_________________________
It will always be worth it, to be with someone who knows your worth
_________________________
He's the one guy you will always go back to. Always vulnerable to him.
_________________________
When s/he is really, really into you, s/he will always find a way to make time for you. NO EXCUSES.
_________________________
The only true painful goodbyes.. are the ones that are never said and never explained.
_________________________
I should do the right thing because its our choices that make us who we are
Saturday, April 17, 2010
nice lines=)
1. ” I want to stop wandering what if, i wan to know what is”
2. ” Hindi maaayos ang isang bagay na paulit-ulit kung magkasama”
3. “Kung kaya pang ayusin, ayusin, but if this is what the both of you needs then be strong hopefully all the pain will be worth it” -
4.”Not everything is about you
5. “Kelangan ko to, Kelangan mo rin
“Pero ikaw ang kelangan ko”
6. “hey, alam mo ba ang 3 month rule?, lahat ng tao na nakikipagbreak alam yun. Maghihintay ka muna ng 3 buwan bago ka makipagboyfriend ulit”
7. “Single but happy”
9. “Sana kaya kong tiisin yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, kais ako ang humiling nito, ako ang may gusto nito”
10. “Kasi ang totoo, umaasa pa din ako na sabihin mo.. sana ako pa rin, ako na lang, ako na lang ulit”
11. “She love me at my worst, You had me at my best, At binaliwala mo lang lahat yun”
“Yan ba ang talagang tingin mo?, I just made a choice”
“But you chose to break my heart”
12. “Kaya tayo iniiwan ng taong mahal natin kasi baka may bagong darating na mas ok.. na mas mamahalin tayo.. Yung taonghindi tayo sasaktan at paaasahin. yung taong magtatama ng mga mali sa buhay natin”
13. “Its better for two people to break up.. so they can grow up”
14. “It takes grown ups to make relationship work
15. “Im just not sure if love is enough
16. “I want my heart to stop breaking
2. ” Hindi maaayos ang isang bagay na paulit-ulit kung magkasama”
3. “Kung kaya pang ayusin, ayusin, but if this is what the both of you needs then be strong hopefully all the pain will be worth it” -
4.”Not everything is about you
5. “Kelangan ko to, Kelangan mo rin
“Pero ikaw ang kelangan ko”
6. “hey, alam mo ba ang 3 month rule?, lahat ng tao na nakikipagbreak alam yun. Maghihintay ka muna ng 3 buwan bago ka makipagboyfriend ulit”
7. “Single but happy”
9. “Sana kaya kong tiisin yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, kais ako ang humiling nito, ako ang may gusto nito”
10. “Kasi ang totoo, umaasa pa din ako na sabihin mo.. sana ako pa rin, ako na lang, ako na lang ulit”
11. “She love me at my worst, You had me at my best, At binaliwala mo lang lahat yun”
“Yan ba ang talagang tingin mo?, I just made a choice”
“But you chose to break my heart”
12. “Kaya tayo iniiwan ng taong mahal natin kasi baka may bagong darating na mas ok.. na mas mamahalin tayo.. Yung taonghindi tayo sasaktan at paaasahin. yung taong magtatama ng mga mali sa buhay natin”
13. “Its better for two people to break up.. so they can grow up”
14. “It takes grown ups to make relationship work
15. “Im just not sure if love is enough
16. “I want my heart to stop breaking
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Mother's Love For Her Children
The story as it is written!
My mom only had one eye...
I hated her...
She was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students and teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.
I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'
I wanted to bury myself...
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?'
My mom did not respond...
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married...
I bought a house of my own...
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.
Then one day, my Mother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!' GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'
And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry.
I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack (My old home) just out of curiosity.
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have......
'My dearest son,
I think of you all the time.
I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
You're Loving Mother."
The following day, the guy committed suicide by consuming cyanide...
There is no love greater than a mother's for her children, ever!
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This is written by a friend of mine, Alvin Rolda.
My mom only had one eye...
I hated her...
She was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students and teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.
I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'
I wanted to bury myself...
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?'
My mom did not respond...
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married...
I bought a house of my own...
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.
Then one day, my Mother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!' GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'
And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry.
I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack (My old home) just out of curiosity.
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have......
'My dearest son,
I think of you all the time.
I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
You're Loving Mother."
The following day, the guy committed suicide by consuming cyanide...
There is no love greater than a mother's for her children, ever!
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This is written by a friend of mine, Alvin Rolda.
False Pretends.
Happy as what we are before.
Now, together we are as one.
But, I'm still looking for more.
This is not what I want to be done.
Memories were forgotten,
even remembering it was forbidden.
But even if it is heaven for me to look on,
It makes me feel I'm still in its bottom.
As what we seen,
Loving you is my greatest win.
Having you do not pursuits loneliness.
Falling for you is such happiness.
But then, it falls like droplets during rains.
Tears falls down too instantly.
The pain that ruins my entire day,
how come this life be so delay?
Now, hate this kind of affection.
But somehow, it made me realized
that loving you is my greatest mistake.
Now, together we are as one.
But, I'm still looking for more.
This is not what I want to be done.
Memories were forgotten,
even remembering it was forbidden.
But even if it is heaven for me to look on,
It makes me feel I'm still in its bottom.
As what we seen,
Loving you is my greatest win.
Having you do not pursuits loneliness.
Falling for you is such happiness.
But then, it falls like droplets during rains.
Tears falls down too instantly.
The pain that ruins my entire day,
how come this life be so delay?
Now, hate this kind of affection.
But somehow, it made me realized
that loving you is my greatest mistake.
Seeing a Falling Star
Having you is like a sudden fall of a star.
like a light coming towards the earth.
unending love of ours,
please, prove to me that it's really worth.
My life for long is as bad as a gladiator.
I have to fight for it.
yet I know, loosing was soon to have been.
But then, an angel came by..
and her mission is to fix my broken heart.
How come this girl has caught this
fool guy's heart
that has been left with no one and with tears.
am I ready to let this go?
or I have to look back
and try once more to have her heart once more?
Remembering those past days is such depressing.
but why am I still want to love her back?
though I know I cannot have her?
I must look on what has happened to me.
And to already prove in me that
love is like a battlefield.
I already have this "new" girl.
An angel has fallen in my sight.
That forever I do not want for us be apart.
we have each others' heart.
that at first, has started with a ONCE UPON A TIME.
and would END in a Happily ever after:)
like a light coming towards the earth.
unending love of ours,
please, prove to me that it's really worth.
My life for long is as bad as a gladiator.
I have to fight for it.
yet I know, loosing was soon to have been.
But then, an angel came by..
and her mission is to fix my broken heart.
How come this girl has caught this
fool guy's heart
that has been left with no one and with tears.
am I ready to let this go?
or I have to look back
and try once more to have her heart once more?
Remembering those past days is such depressing.
but why am I still want to love her back?
though I know I cannot have her?
I must look on what has happened to me.
And to already prove in me that
love is like a battlefield.
I already have this "new" girl.
An angel has fallen in my sight.
That forever I do not want for us be apart.
we have each others' heart.
that at first, has started with a ONCE UPON A TIME.
and would END in a Happily ever after:)
The Pianist's Heart
I remember the days I first play this piece...
how crazy I am of having him in my life,
how stupid I am in loving him so badly.
This is how I was before.
that I do not want to be once more.
Now, everything has change.
not because destiny made its way.
but to change my life from black to beige.
for me to look onto the new world clearly in each day
I was once awaited for a guy to love me back.
but It took me so long.
I wish loving u is as easy as Dora brings backpack .
I wish moving on is as easy as Dora moving forward.
I wish forgetting you is like Map,
which hands me the real path to let you go.
How i wish life isn't a rough way to walk on.
This is life, live on it.
be happy as you are right now.
Do not look no more in the past:)
how crazy I am of having him in my life,
how stupid I am in loving him so badly.
This is how I was before.
that I do not want to be once more.
Now, everything has change.
not because destiny made its way.
but to change my life from black to beige.
for me to look onto the new world clearly in each day
I was once awaited for a guy to love me back.
but It took me so long.
I wish loving u is as easy as Dora brings backpack .
I wish moving on is as easy as Dora moving forward.
I wish forgetting you is like Map,
which hands me the real path to let you go.
How i wish life isn't a rough way to walk on.
This is life, live on it.
be happy as you are right now.
Do not look no more in the past:)
Thursday, March 25, 2010
A Girl's Summer Dream
Its another summer for me and for all of us.
Some of us would go to their provinces or in beaches, while some would rather stay home that go anywhere.
This summer is my last summer in my high school year.
Next school year, I'll be in my senior year.
woa.. it's seems like i was a freshmen, way back.. hehe
time really run so fast..
I just complied my clearance yesterday.
It means that I'll be surely in 4th year at my school.
Our last day ended last week (March 19)
Me and my friends went somewhere together..
We dis this because we all know that we have to be ready in
our upcoming senior lives and we have to say goodbye in our
childish high school doings.
Me and my friends were talking about on how would we manage
our schedule in this coming school year.
(we have seen some of our previous senior friends that they had really a conflict schedule., especially in those who were members of the school's chorale, students' newspaper publication, varsities-- some like those.)
This summer, Me and family are currently planning on what province or country we would be visiting on.
Me and my sister do want to go to Korea (South).
I want to go there to visit Korea, but she wants to see her Korean pop idols.haha
She was really addicted in the movie "Boys over Flowers" (the Korean f4)
and some of the persons who sang in the movie's soundtrack.
I almost broke my eardrum when she's always playing the Korean songs
all over and over and over... haha..
Last July 2009, it was my birthday month:D
so as a gift for me, My family decided to go for a trip to Boracay.
I wasn't expecting that we would go there because Me and my sisters
were attending school during that days.
I really want to go back to Boracay again.. hehe
But my mother and lolo want to go to our province-In Romblon
It was way back 2004, it was my last visit in our Province.
I was an upcoming 4th Grader then in my new institution.
We spent almost a month staying there.
Well anyway, we have our house there and it is big enough for all of us.
There's a lot of beaches there.
Some have white sand... so do not have..
but it is pretty enough for tourist to come by and swim there.
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I want to go to a lot of places before I finally graduated High school.
because i know when I get into college, I have to manage all of my time
and focus in the field I enrolled on.
Some of us would go to their provinces or in beaches, while some would rather stay home that go anywhere.
This summer is my last summer in my high school year.
Next school year, I'll be in my senior year.
woa.. it's seems like i was a freshmen, way back.. hehe
time really run so fast..
I just complied my clearance yesterday.
It means that I'll be surely in 4th year at my school.
Our last day ended last week (March 19)
Me and my friends went somewhere together..
We dis this because we all know that we have to be ready in
our upcoming senior lives and we have to say goodbye in our
childish high school doings.
Me and my friends were talking about on how would we manage
our schedule in this coming school year.
(we have seen some of our previous senior friends that they had really a conflict schedule., especially in those who were members of the school's chorale, students' newspaper publication, varsities-- some like those.)
This summer, Me and family are currently planning on what province or country we would be visiting on.
Me and my sister do want to go to Korea (South).
I want to go there to visit Korea, but she wants to see her Korean pop idols.haha
She was really addicted in the movie "Boys over Flowers" (the Korean f4)
and some of the persons who sang in the movie's soundtrack.
I almost broke my eardrum when she's always playing the Korean songs
all over and over and over... haha..
Last July 2009, it was my birthday month:D
so as a gift for me, My family decided to go for a trip to Boracay.
I wasn't expecting that we would go there because Me and my sisters
were attending school during that days.
I really want to go back to Boracay again.. hehe
But my mother and lolo want to go to our province-In Romblon
It was way back 2004, it was my last visit in our Province.
I was an upcoming 4th Grader then in my new institution.
We spent almost a month staying there.
Well anyway, we have our house there and it is big enough for all of us.
There's a lot of beaches there.
Some have white sand... so do not have..
but it is pretty enough for tourist to come by and swim there.
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I want to go to a lot of places before I finally graduated High school.
because i know when I get into college, I have to manage all of my time
and focus in the field I enrolled on.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Happy Hearts Day!:)
February 14 is an ordinary day for me..
Me and My family went out to have fun outside..
We just got there at 2 pm.. I was in Greenbelt.
I together with my Mom and Dad..
while my other siblings were at SM Mall of Asia
in Pasay..
We just dropped them by at the mall..
and.. Even if I have gone absent for
two days (Thursday and Friday),
I stubbornly came to our trip..:)
even if I'm a bit sick.
Really, my parents want to spend Valentines with just two of them.
However, they were forced to bring me with them in
Greenbelt 4, Makati.. (while my siblings were at MOA)
Because I'm shy... I told them I'll just head to a Cafe and spend all the time in there. . And an addition to that, I also told them to just spend the entire remaining hours for their bonding time.. and not to mind me, 'coz I'm fine.. really..
I really don't like to be a comma between them.. haha..
so I said what was my side.. instead..
Then there at Starbucks.. I spent my entire time..alone..
the store was filled with costumers and also, entering customers as well..
I was in there.. listening in my Ipod's song..
doing nothing... I didn't go to sleep of course.. .But i I'm abt to.. haha:)
and then.. it was around 9 pm.. when I really want to go home..
because tomorrow will be Monday. And I have to rest.. so I decided to text my mom.
Then was hoping for her reply.. but it took almost half an hour when I had received her reply.
Before waiting for my mother's reply... I decided to use my phone.. Instead to just sitting down or whatsoever.. I sent GM to my friends...
I was using my Sun Cellular Sim so.. I have no choice but to send GM for those who I know were using their Sun Sim.
Then I had received a reply..for a guy friend..
then he said "hello... "
so I come to reply with hello also.
then//.. Then//.. some conversation with him..
My parents entered along the Coffee Shop..
saying. were about to go home.
Then packed out my scattered things on
the mini table.. and stood up..
walked away from the cafe .. and went to a
Restaurant to eat dinner..
we were still texting while I'm eating..
haha..
.. I asked him.. and brought up about the
special day happening.. :)
then he said... I have to date at all.. I'm alone..
here at Glorietta...
I was shocked when he mentioned Glorietta. because.
It just nearby Greenbelt.. hahaha..
then I told him also where I was
As we walked to the location where our car was parked.
We still texting...
then he told me.. Let's meet up.. :)
then I replied with.. "I'm on my way at the parking lot..
with my parents.. Let's just meet some other time. ."
but in my mind... This is my moment!! arghh!
hahahha.. xD
Well.. That’s life.. .
Play with it.. While its playing with u..
haha
then.. I came to the point of saying...
I hope he and I met..
He was in MaKATI.. And I was also in Makati.
How Ironic life cud be. haha
Me and My family went out to have fun outside..
We just got there at 2 pm.. I was in Greenbelt.
I together with my Mom and Dad..
while my other siblings were at SM Mall of Asia
in Pasay..
We just dropped them by at the mall..
and.. Even if I have gone absent for
two days (Thursday and Friday),
I stubbornly came to our trip..:)
even if I'm a bit sick.
Really, my parents want to spend Valentines with just two of them.
However, they were forced to bring me with them in
Greenbelt 4, Makati.. (while my siblings were at MOA)
Because I'm shy... I told them I'll just head to a Cafe and spend all the time in there. . And an addition to that, I also told them to just spend the entire remaining hours for their bonding time.. and not to mind me, 'coz I'm fine.. really..
I really don't like to be a comma between them.. haha..
so I said what was my side.. instead..
Then there at Starbucks.. I spent my entire time..alone..
the store was filled with costumers and also, entering customers as well..
I was in there.. listening in my Ipod's song..
doing nothing... I didn't go to sleep of course.. .But i I'm abt to.. haha:)
and then.. it was around 9 pm.. when I really want to go home..
because tomorrow will be Monday. And I have to rest.. so I decided to text my mom.
Then was hoping for her reply.. but it took almost half an hour when I had received her reply.
Before waiting for my mother's reply... I decided to use my phone.. Instead to just sitting down or whatsoever.. I sent GM to my friends...
I was using my Sun Cellular Sim so.. I have no choice but to send GM for those who I know were using their Sun Sim.
Then I had received a reply..for a guy friend..
then he said "hello... "
so I come to reply with hello also.
then//.. Then//.. some conversation with him..
My parents entered along the Coffee Shop..
saying. were about to go home.
Then packed out my scattered things on
the mini table.. and stood up..
walked away from the cafe .. and went to a
Restaurant to eat dinner..
we were still texting while I'm eating..
haha..
.. I asked him.. and brought up about the
special day happening.. :)
then he said... I have to date at all.. I'm alone..
here at Glorietta...
I was shocked when he mentioned Glorietta. because.
It just nearby Greenbelt.. hahaha..
then I told him also where I was
As we walked to the location where our car was parked.
We still texting...
then he told me.. Let's meet up.. :)
then I replied with.. "I'm on my way at the parking lot..
with my parents.. Let's just meet some other time. ."
but in my mind... This is my moment!! arghh!
hahahha.. xD
Well.. That’s life.. .
Play with it.. While its playing with u..
haha
then.. I came to the point of saying...
I hope he and I met..
He was in MaKATI.. And I was also in Makati.
How Ironic life cud be. haha
Friday, February 12, 2010
The Sweet Confessions
I did not left you behind though in other girl, she will.
I’m being too understandable enough just to realize well what u wants to do in your life.
I sometimes get in denial in the eyes of my friends just to deny what the true feeling of mine for you whenever they ask me about you and me.
I did hack some of the girls’ profile saying ILY to you on your page specifically, even though I know it Is bad
I got worried when you are at the place where alcohols and temptations are present or even far away from your place…
And the worst part is…
I get jealous about the girls flirting and saying I love you to you…
I’m sometimes about to freak out whenever u aren’t texting me or doesn’t know where you are…
Feeling uneasy when you’re far away
Feeling blue when I’m missing you..
What I Hate About Love
Why do we fall in love with someone who ain't really for us? Should we blame ourselves in falling with the wrong one? Or should we blame them because they made us fall for them?
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